This clip really hit home with me - and I am still sitting here with wet cheeks and a runny nose while I try my best to compose myself to write this.

The title of this post is, if I may venture so far to say, a «time honoured» phrase that has been embraced for ages. We have embraced the innocence and the bluntness of children for generations and sometimes we have been embarrassed by their outbursts and try and blanket it with ignorance.

Ignorance is bliss, it is an opportunity to learn, however, and I can NOT stress this point enough, it is VITAL that when addressing ignorance all, and I truly mean ALL, sides need to be looked at.

Not just the right and not just the left, allow the opportunity for the ignorant to take in everything and learn from it and make their own decision.

Why the clip below really hits home for me - I will explain.

About 2 months ago H came to visit me for a weekend.  H and I were involved in a long term relationship for 4 years where I picked up, left everything I could not pack in 2 suitcases, moved across the country to be with him.

When we met he had a daughter, she is still around¹. She was 4 years old at the time and the first time I met her she stole my heart.

I was terrified of children. In fact I really hated kids.²

I digress.

Anyway, back to why this hit me.  One night while he was here and we were talking about stuff and things and I finally had the guts, after looking back and analyzing the things that I did, I apologized for the things I did that broke down our relationship³ and that I wish I had known better because I was proud of the family that we were and that to this day when I talk to his daughter online⁴ I still remain so proud of her and that there was and always will be a part of me that is jealous that she is not my daughter.

He then turned to me⁵ and said to me, «after you left,⁶ we had a discussion about you⁷ leaving and why.

And the simple response from an 8 year old girl that had no idea what gay or straight meant is that she was sad that her Papa was alone and didn't have someone there to love him.

And in the spirit of that innocence I share this with you;

Munchkin I am so proud of you - and I love you so much - BONK! And I truly hate it when my Mom still calls me her baby but I do know what she means - YOU will always be my Munchkin no matter how old you are!

1. it is a weird way of present tense and past tense in English grammar that I am still not 100% sure on - am I talking about when we met or her existence now?↩
2. My cousins were out of control spoiled brats that were an embarrassment in public - and to prove my point they would throw their food that they did not want to eat at other people in the restaurant - their parents reaction was «oh honey please don't do that» - um ya did they stop? nope - so then their parents decided to try and ignore the behaviour - meanwhile some woman is pulling a side of beef out of her hair.↩
3. between H and I and between his daughter and him and I↩
4. either via MSN or sometimes on the phone↩
5. the flood gates just opened up again↩
6. I will have to explain more about how I left at a different time, but to sum it up I pretty much disappeared because I could not handle the thought of that weekend being the last weekend I would see her, the last weekend we would be a family, the last weekend we would curl up on the couch and watch our favourite shows, or we would make waffles that Saturday morning and she would eat more waffles than me, or that we would sit there and I would bursh her hair - I just was not strong enough to do it - so I walked away.↩
7. meaning me↩